I do love my sweet family, and my darling kids...but there are some moments of complete stress. Just this morning I was trying to take care of Rachel who was crying and didn't want put down and Logan who thought he would cry too b/c that seemed to get mommy's attention. After what felt like hours (it was probably only minutes) I told Logan (in a surprisingly calm voice) that I thought Mommy was losing it. His response? He stopped crying and told me he would find it! If only it was the simple. I asked if he knew what I had lost, to which he gave me a quizzical look and simply said he would find it. I told him I didn't think he would find it because mommy had lost her mind. I told him if he did find it to let me know because I imagine it is very useful not to lose.
I have to keep telling myself that this is only a season of life, and that it will go by quickly so I need to cherish each moment. I look at some other parents who seem to have it all together, for example: a lady at the doctor's had 4 girls: 2 twins that looked to be about 5, 1 who looked to be about 1 1/2 or so and a 9 day old. I asked her how it was with four, and she said so calmly and sweetly that it wasn't that hard and that her girls were so helpful (and not only did she look like she really believed that, but she had a 9 day old baby and she didn't look like she had ever been pregnant!). Ha! How easy it is to compare my life to others, but that's not what it is all about either!
I guess (as I ramble on and on and really have no point to this blog post really, except I thought I'd add our latest family photo and then found myself typing) what I'm realizing is that I just desperately need Jesus! I imagine that finding peace and joy in Him in every stage or phase or season of life would help me enjoy it better. Easier said then done, mainly because I keep trying to do everything in my own strength instead of relying on Him. Prayerfully I will figure this out in my heart soon and not just in my head!
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